Confined

Confined to this space until they arise,
Patiently waiting for the big surprise.
Eyes locked up and arms put to rest,
Each night presents the hardest test.

A few hours in and I'm already up,
Trying to cover the eternal buildup.
Standing up on my own,
I couldn't do it, I should have known.
Maybe another day when it all clears,
It ain't me facing all my fears.

Blinds make way for the long awaited rays,
The floor lights up with the shiniest layer of glaze.
Despite this heavenly victory,
The hours present a mere mystery.

Gasping for breath among silent cries,
Soon gotta pay for all my highs.
Standing up on my own,
I couldn't do it, I should have known.
Maybe another day when it all clears,
It ain't me facing all my fears.

The end of the tunnel shines a light,
Silence creeps in at the dead of night.
You can never find the truth,
'Till you draw the blinds.
You can never save your youth,
Living life buried in lies.

A few hours in and I'm already up,
Trying to cover the eternal buildup.
Standing up on my own,
I couldn't do it, I should have known.